The journey begins

Well here is my first ever post on my first ever blog.  I'm starting this a little late.  I lost Braden over 10 months ago now, but there are so many things I want to say that I just can't to other people.  I think that coming up on Braden's birthday is causing this sense of dread in me.  First there's Easter, then the anniversary of my baby shower, then Mother's Day, then Memorial Day (so many things around that time- that whole weekend centers around knowing something was wrong, but being told he was ok), June 1st- the last time I heard his heartbeat and felt him move, then June 2- his birthday-the day he died-all wrapped into one, then Father's Day.  So much in two months time frame.  I keep thinking that once I make it past those dates, it will be easier- I'm hoping.  His headstone was finally put up two days ago.  We decorated it yesterday for Easter.  I'm glad it is finally there, but it definately felt so final.  It turned out beautiful- just what I wanted for him.  I'm not that computer savvy when it comes to blogging, so I guess this will be a learn as I go experience.  I think it's going to be theraputic though!